The Devil Returned Again...I believed so I revived


The Devil Returned Again (Part1)


The Night was cold and I wrapped myself in the blanket

It was the mid night when my eyes got opened

I was alone in the room it was raining with thunder

And I sensed some strangeness, an strangeness that I met before.. It was dark...


I had realised that my old enemy whom I buried a long ago was returned

The devil returned again...


This time more huge, revengeful and determined

It seemed that he had been preparing all those years

Before I prepare myself to react he started to attack

I tried to resist but this time his moves was unmanageable


Soon my brain got fully intoxicated with his attacks

I lost my own consciousness became perplexed 

It seemed that I got completely possessed 

And the devil made me do what he wanted me to do


I was left on the ground pathetically 

I was completely shackled in the chains vehemently


The devil was laughing at my condition

"Didn't I already proclaim? I am superior to you 

I'm made from fire you're made from mud

the mud goes down while the fire goes up

I'm the part of you, don't resist me

I'll set you free if you assist me"


Tears were flowing down all over my face

My hands were trembling and my legs got shake

My soul was bleeding and my heart that I fixed somehow was destroyed again...For the devil was returned again


He thrown an offer "join my party and I won't bother you again

Shake hands with me and you'll be free from pain

I live inside you, I know your weaknessess, cravings and desires

You just give me your soul and I'll give you everything you want"


There was a sense of frustration in his eyes... the trickster wanted my soul.. but why..?


My soul must have some real secrets

From which the devil trying hard to keep me ignorant


I was dying with pain, he was trying to pull my soul... He wanted that badly.


My heart was shattered on the ground and I was picking that up.. until I realised...that it's my soul that is the cause of devil's agonize


And I decided to not join the devil and struggle again this time

I didn't let him snatch my soul and suffered the whole night


The dawn broke, the sky shone with sunray....and I was kept thinking about the devil's offer all day


I decided that I'll unveil this secret of soul

I left everything and made it my life's goal

In the meanwhile the devil returned many times again

I tolerated all his attacks, kept struggling and bore all the pains


I seen my heart kept breaking and my soul kept bleeding in all those times

Everytime the devil used to trick me and I was left alone for crying ...

I Believed so I Revived (Part2)


I was near the edge and lost nearly all the hopes to revive
After so much sufferings it appeared easier to die
But after a long long time finally the day arrived
All my dark sufferings have finally lit a dim light


It started becoming clear why the devil wanted to take my soul
I took a long time but I understood the life in whole
I went back to the beginning of creation and I tried to comprehend the earliest conversations


It was now clear that why the devil was jealous and full of frustration.. it was arrogance that made him so callous and caused his degradation 


The more I knew the more I empowered
Knots were untangled and hopes were showered

The scars of suffering are still left as indicator
This soul has eventually conquered the devil, its hater

Listen O my enemy O the trickster.. I'm superior to you.. I'm superior to you. The reason of this superiority is my unconditional submission to my lord.

Attack me with your temptation, annoy me, put me into trouble.. bring your party to haunt me.. you'll never succeed in your plan...

No matter how much you bother me I'll never disobey my lord 
and even if somehow I fail I'll keep repenting to him and only him alone. There is no share of you in my soul. 
It belongs to my lord and it will only love its lord. 


You tried to convince me that you're the innate part of my being
No, you're a liar and an intruder from whom I'm now freeing

You attack me with whisperings, go ahead use your weapons
In my lord I seek refuge and my soul will only go into his submission
For I now knew that only in his submission, lies my ultimate freedom


You said that you knew my weakness.
But now let me tell you about my strengths. My strength is my submission, my strength is my humility, my sincerity, and for your surprise even my weakness is my strength.

For it makes me realise to depend only and only upon my lord. I'm not arrogant like you. I proclaim openly that I'm the weak and there's no power but besides the power of my lord. 

I sometimes wonder how I survived and I realised that..I believed so I revived..I believed so I revived..



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